the image on top is "Welcome Home Sweet Sugar" by Kelsey Brooks

Friday, May 7, 2010

May 19th

The first day of my weekly class starts May 19th. Bam.

Thursday, May 6, 2010


I have fourteen more hours of my formal undergraduate education, and I can barely do it. Apart from eating everything in sight, non-stop, and the slight-as-always panic such rapid ingestion always causes me, I feel isolated, and not present to my current experience.

Basically, I just really don't like being tied to a computer for projects. I want to be living/working in an interactive environment, not an isolated work-area.

Regardless, a strange thing happened to me this evening: I got so emotionally hungry. And I could tell the difference, it was profound. I just so badly wanted to be fed with interaction, comfort, closeness.

I think I've fallen into the trap I accuse so many of- placing the responsibility for all their close interaction on one route. There's nothing wrong with this inherently, it just negates the incredible richness of humanity around one. And the ability of the world to provide.

Monday, May 3, 2010


A very strange thing happens to me in warm weather, apart from an inability to sleep in late and sudden craving for mango and watermelon.

I suddenly became very aware of my own mortality.

This isn't morbid, it's not that I fear I will suddenly die. It's just that I am very aware of how strange, how magical and how mysterious it is to be a real living thing on this planet. I am more honored by the temporary and shocking physicality around me, I am more charmed by how I have grown.